Wednesday, December 29, 2010

A Very Sad Day

Once upon a time I wanted a dog, more then anything. Not just any dog, but a Puggle. My heart was set. If there was anyone who could talk me out of this I dared them to stand in my way, including my husband. He gave in and we got Lily. The most adorable puppy there ever was. She literally stopped traffic with her incredible cuteness. She was our baby and we loved her to pieces.

One day we had a real baby. One that made us change the way we felt about our dog immensely. Lily had to be constantly managed. You could never leave anything anywhere for fear of her eating it. She stole all snacks & food she could get her little paws on. She woke the baby up constantly. We spent all our time trying to keep her quiet and calm. We stopped enjoying taking her places. She would bark and whine and make all experiences less fun and more challenging. She ate each and every favorite pair of jeans I have ever had.

We found ourselves yelling at her all the time. Not wanting her around, not wanting to walk her, wishing she would just go away. Don't get me wrong, I still LOVE this dog but the frustration she was bringing was over-weighing the love all the time. The hardest part for me was watching the way John felt about Lily change to the point of hatred. He didn't seem to have a place in his heart for her at all anymore. She was causing more stress to the family then one dog ever should.

Finding Lily a new home has been an ongoing discussion we have been weighing for three years. Really the love I have for this dog is my biggest reason for wanting to get rid of her. She deserves better parents then we were to her. She deserves to be walked all the time and played with and to receive positive attention. She deserves to be loved, she really is a great dog aside from the result of our neglect of her.

Over the last few days she has pooped on our floor about 10 times, she has never done this before. I took this as a sign, it is time for us to go our separate ways. Over the last 3 years we have offered her up to everyone that has shown any interest in having a dog but we have found no one who wanted her. Last night I posted an ad online and within the first 2 hours I got about 45 replies from people begging to be the one to take her, each pleading their case as to why their family would be best.

I picked one, a family that has a stay at home mom, two little boys, 4 and 8 years old and a 6 month old lab. After much discussion with the family back and forth I knew in my heart that this family was the right one for Lily. She would LOVE to have a dog sibling to wrestle with on a daily basis. She loves labs. And little boys? She is going to be in heaven. They walk their dog all the time and take it with them where ever they go. The family is beyond excited to add Lily to their family. I feel like they can give her everything we can't.

So she is gone now. Regardless of the fact that I have been crying for two days over this I knew it was the best thing in my heart and as soon as she pulled away in their car I was totally certain. She is going somewhere she will be much happier.

And if I don't absolutely die over my guilt and loss, I know I too will be happier in the end. To think back on how hard my life was with Lily when Ava was born I just know this is the best thing going into this next phase in our life with a new baby. I am really trying to make peace with this decision, it is one of the hardest ones I have ever had to make.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Christmas Pictures

The tree and all the decorations may be down but we
better back up a sec, here are some photos from
Christmas before we forget all about them.
We went to a lovely party on Christmas Eve, I didn't
break out my camera once. I can't explain it. Something
must be wrong with me. Here are two of the pictures I took
right before we put Ava to bed.
The next morning, Christmas morning, we held a party
at our house. I made my sister take a few photos of John
& I before the guests arrived.
Where is Ava you wonder??
Here she is, she slept until we woke her up at 10:30,
long after our party had begun.
But when she did get up she was happy as a clam,
thrilled to be surrounded by Christmas cheer.
There were a ton of presents.
And our beloved family.
She loves her Dad.
We made her hand out all the presents. She loved that job.
You may remember the whole Pillow Pet ordeal,
she had asked for a bee, then changed her mind
claiming she wanted a "red bee with black polka dots".
Right before Christmas she changed her mind again.
Her heart was set on a frog Pillow Pet. We decided to just
give her the dang lady bug and see how it went.
She said about 5 times while opening the lady bug
"But I wanted the frog Pillow Pet!!"
I even have it on video. : )

She doesn't look too broken up about it to me,
in fact now she has a dolphin Pillow Pet, but that
is a whole other story : )
My rock star cousin Jess & his glamorous girlfriend joined us.
Grandma Angi & Ava
After a nice party at home we headed out to the
next Christmas gig. We went up to my Mom's house
to open gifts and have Christmas dinner.

Ava dabbles in guitar whenever she gets a chance.
She might end up being a rock star too, it is in her blood.
Trains, always a hit.
Jessica & D'Auna
Norah & I
One of Ava's gifts was a camera, her and Colton
took turns taking pictures of each other.
Pretty cute!
We had a perfect Christmas with our wonderful family.
We really couldn't ask for much more then that.

Now that the pictures have been shared,
we can officially move on : )

Monday, December 27, 2010

Three Years Old?!!

My little baby is turning 3 today,
where has the time gone?
Yesterday we had a little party for her.
Ok, truth be told, not so little, more like huge.

We got home Christmas evening, put Ava to bed
and ripped our tree down. We put away every last
Christmas decoration and replaced it all with birthday motif.

Yes, we are crazy like that.

It took Ava a few hours of reveling in balloons to
notice her beloved tree was missing : )

She soon realized there were a whole new slew of gifts
to be open (there really is something to be said for tricking
these December birthday people into thinking their birthday
is in July, way too many gifts in a very short period of time!)

The house was packed full of Ava admirers,
we have such wonderful, supportive friends and family.
Ava was so cute, each guest that arrived she gave huge
hugs to and thanked them for coming. She was jumping
up and down telling people she is 3 now!

She was so excited for cake she started asking for it
soon after she woke up.
Our happy little 3 year old:
We had to negotiate with her to keep opening presents.
Between the last few days she was on total present overload.
After the day was through I packed up a bunch of her
gifts, put them in the attic and marked the calendar a few
months from now to break them out again.
She will be thrilled on that day, seeing all her wonderful
gifts she has already forgotten about.

Here she is blow drying her hair, she loves this thing,
if you were here yesterday, you also probably got your
hair blown dry too.
Playing with Erik & Colton
It was a great day. Ava couldn't of been happier.
She loves being surrounded by her friends and family.
The last few days have been exhausting,
but all this craziness is worth it when you make your
favorite THREE year old this happy.
Happy birthday sweet girl!
You mean the world to us.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Holiday Decorating

We just got back from the beach.
We had a nice relaxing time,
we played a lot of Ticket to Ride,
we even upped the stakes and played for money!
We danced.
We also got creative!
Ava got to decorate a gingerbread house:
She did great.
This is very serious stuff, don't you know.
I think she is trying to convince me it belongs in her tummy.
My Mom got Ava this little birthday cake game.
It is just like this pizza game my Aunt Linda has
that Ava has always loved.
You can slice the pieces and decorate them with
different toppings, they even have candles.
She was in heaven.
We must of had the happy birthday song sang to
us a million times. We started to feel pretty old. : )
Not only did we make candy houses and eat a lot
of fake cake but we also made cookies to decorate.
I may or may not of teased Ava by telling her she couldn't
eat a cookie after Mom & Jessica each ate one.
Yes, I am mean.
I was only kidding though...
Check out the end result:
Ava is so creative!

I have no idea what face this is:
Have a wonderful holiday,
Merry Christmas!! : )

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

She Cracks Us Up!

Here is a VERY QUICK video
of Ava telling her new joke, I don't know where
she learned this but she won't stop telling it.

"Why do chickens sit on their eggs?
Because they don't have a chair!!"

Cracks her up each time,
and really, even though I have now heard it
437 times, I still think it is funny.

It's her little laugh that gets me...

Monday, December 20, 2010

Busy, busy.

It is such a busy time of year.
I'm really OK with that though.
Sort of in a stage of hurry up lets get this baby all
cooked and out of here!

Saturday we went to visit Sammy and see the
bunnies she has on loan from her school for
Christmas break. The bunnies are huge!
They were also quite tame and really nice.
They are basically taking over Sammy's whole room!

I love this picture of the kids sitting together while
Tracy reads them a story:
Next we headed up to Mom's house to help decorate
her tree. Ava became an eagle for a moment:
She enjoyed hanging the ornaments.
Chris & D'Auna helped too.
The finished tree:
Uncle Chris
Auntie D'Auna
We had a fun time hanging out with the family.

Tomorrow Ava and I will head to the beach for a few days
of relaxing before all the holiday festivities begin.

When we come home it will be game on, lots of cooking,
partying, family and friends. A two day Christmas
extravaganza followed immediately by our little baby's
3rd birthday party.

Bring on the whirlwind, we are almost ready : )